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Monday, February 12, 2007,8:05 PM
class has started for 2wks plus..
i can't say i have totally accepted e culture but i have more or less adapted to it..
i'm used to havin gentleman around.. guys who will press e lift for u.. hold e door for u.. little little things.. make them very attractive..
n needless to say they can really talk.. which is a plus point..
i like guys who can present themselves properly.. who speaks things of substance.. who has "feng du".. yet humourous..
i do not like ppl who goes to buffet & grab many plates of food at one go.. or who eats like he's swallowin down his food instead of tastin them..
i can't stand guys whose mouth have to include some sort of vulgarities & tell me this is natural for them.. esp if it's my bf e more i can't stand it..
y study so much & looked so well groomed etc.. but when u open your mouth.. ppl got e shock of their lives..
last time i used to dislike it..
but now i'm even more particular..
this is not being superficial i must say..
it's just abt being presentable..
recently i'm very lazy to msg r.. now is not i purposely don't want to.. but i just don't feel like doin so already..
i only do so once in e mornin when i'm on my way to class..
sometimes i feel that we have nothin to talk abt..
he will tell mi abt his work.. but whenever i tell him abt my class.. he will either seems like he's not listenin.. change topic or give mi stupid comments which makes mi very pekchek..
it's bad of mi to use e word stupid.. but how come at many occasions i have already said it & he still has to ask mi again..
eg. mi: hey.. my classmate says i should cut blar blar blar hairstyle after it grows abit longer.. ( now it's too short to cut it.. )
he: u r goin to cut ur hair again..?! y don't grow it long..
what the.. i have already told him upteen times i can't..
he makes mi don't feel like talkin to him.. since he is not interested.. i shall not tell him abt them.. since he is so not enthu abt listenin abt them.. i'm sure he's not interested to meet them too right..
+ he is throwin so much temper nowadays that on last sat there is a class dinner.. whom my classmates say i can bring him along.. mi myself & i decided not to ask him along..
he knows nothing abt them.. abt my lessons.. he is so not interested.. i don't want to bring him along & he.. does not interact with them.. & this being a class dinner i want to chat with my classmates not entertain him.. & mi knows that somehow or rather dinner will be "cork" up with 22 ppl around.. i don't want to see his black face & have to be pacifying him.. or worse still let my classmates see his tulan face 7 he starts blabbering out the vulgarities & not only makes himself paisei but mi too..
because he thinks he is stress workin.. & my new job is a bimbotic job with no stress & e lessons are plain redundant & stupid.. & (i feel) he thinks it's a waste of his time to hear mi talkin abt them..
n so since i got a simple job now.. he is stress.. i have to be more understandin..
oh really..
to the hell with this kind of thinkin..
i love him enough not to leave him for another guy..
yet i do not love him enough to stay committed..
the girl who is blessed with a bunch of great friends.. =)